Everything is still good. I had a few more follicles this time. Looks like there were 13 that were good and some that were still growing. She said I am exactly where I need to be in the cycle. We always like hearing words like that! In the last post I told you about Dr. Freeman, but what I did not tell you is how she freaked me out! She was telling me the process of the egg retrieval and then she said "you and your doctor have discussed how many embryos will be transferred". I told her that we had not really discussed it, that she had just flat said that if you are under 35 we only transplant one embryo, sometimes two but we can discuss that when the time comes. So Casey and I have discussed it and Casey is sold on two for sure. I go back and forth with it, but after talking with Dr. Freeman she has really freaked me out. She said "we do not want you to have twins, our goal is for you to have one healthy baby, your body is not made to have twins, many twins dies at 15 and 20 weeks". Are you kidding me? I did not know what to say? I said well our goal is to have a healthy baby as well, but after 5 years of trying and all the money that we have spent we do not want to do this again. We do not want to be stupid or selfish, but we would like to weight out our options and hear the facts. I asked her about my height (having more room for them) and being in pretty good shape may help? She said no! that stuff does not matter. We ended the conversation with; you will discuss this with your doctor after your egg retrieval.
So I went back today and was talking with my IVF nurse, Jennifer. She was telling me that everything looked good and that I do not have to come back in until Monday. She said that she still thinks Monday will be my "trigger day". I guess that means when things will be ready? She said if Monday is my trigger day than the egg retrieval will be on Wednesday. I told Jennifer about my conversation with Dr. Freeman. She basically said that was her job to scare you and make you think. She said about 100% of people who come in for IVF say they want twins! Just for the same reasons we do. There has been some recent research showing that women who go through IVF are at a higher risk because even if you become pregnant with a singleton, your body things you are having twins from all the hormones and steroids you have in your body through this process, so if you have twins your body thinks it is triplets! putting you at a higher risk. She said with each baby you subtract 4 weeks! So twins 36 weeks and triplets 32 weeks! They just know those babies need to stay in the oven as long as they can. She also said that they had lost three sets of twins in the last few months, which was rare, but on every ones mind. I guess I had never told Jennifer that I was a twin. She asked me how long my mom carried us? I said we were 1 day early. She said that was good news! I guess there is some correlation in your moms delivery and in how you will be with your pregnancy/delivery? So I left feeling a little better, but it still ways heavy on our hearts. So please pray that we will know what to do with the number of embryos and that everything will be a success and whatever God's plan for us and our baby or babies will be to his glory!
