A New Year!!

I am ready for the New Year! I am being positive and hoping for the best in 2010. Casey and I and just got back from NYC! Yes, it was a surprise trip for Christmas and my birthday...the BIG 3-0! So today I had to go back to the fertility doctor. I was a little disappointed although I didn't really get bad news, it just wasn't what I was expecting. The first time we went we just got so much news. It was hard to take it all in. When I left I knew that I was to come back on Day 15, so that is what I did. When I was having my ultrasound the technician said why did you come in so late? then she checked my chart and saw that was when I was told to come in. Basically, they could not do what they needed to do because it looks as though I have already ovulated, which is great! I am ovulating, but they needed to see my right before I ovulated. So I paid $210 and to see nothing and to hear take a pregnancy test in two weeks. Call us with the results no matter what, positive or negative. After talking to the doctor my numbers and everything looked really good. She said the new medication looked like it was doing it's job and that may be why I ovulated a little sooner than I typically do. So that was good news, like I said though not what I was expecting. We are hoping and praying for great things!

Being Positive!

Well, we did it. We went to the fertility doctor. It was ok, well better than I thought I guess. Casey seemed to be at ease about the whole thing. I was really worried about him. When we left I was SO overwhelmed with everything that they were telling us. I cannot seem to remember much of anything. I do know that they think I have PCOS (Polycystic Ovary Syndrome) which I think was somewhat good information. What I mean by good is that maybe we have an answer. The PCOS is keeping me from getting pregnant as well as making me gain weight. PCOS is a release of insulin and testosterone, which is the weight gain and it also means that I have cyst on my ovaries, keeping me from getting pregnant. So the doctor has put me on a diabetic medication called glucophage. Hopefully this will break up the cyst and help with the insulin release. We go back to the doctor on December 30th to see if the medicine is working as well as the next steps. They want to talk more about the IUI. They think Casey and I would be good candidates for this type of procedure. So we are trying to be positive about everything. Hoping that 2010 will be a great year!
On another note...Casey and I will be leaving for New York City on Christmas morning. He has planned the whole trip for Christmas and my 30th birthday. He rocks!!

Time flies...

I cannot believe that it is almost Thanksgiving, where has the school year gone? It has been a really good year though. I am really enjoying my job. Not only has the year flown, but I am also almost to my year. My year after surgery, my year where there doctors said my best chances to get pregnant were, my year where if it doesn't happen then endometriosis is most likely not the cause for not getting pregnant! It makes me so sad. It makes me even more sad to think of what is next...fertility doctors. They are SO expensive and the percents are not very good especially with the money you are putting out. I have to trust and believe that it is meant to be, I WILL be a mom one day, Casey WILL be a dad and together we WILL be a family! What a great day!!!

It is that time again...

Time for school to officially start a new year. I am about to begin my 8th year teaching. I think I told a lot of people that last year was my 8th year now that I think about it. When I moved in the middle of the year (in 2005), I think I always count that as two years. Wow, was that a year! I have had the busiest summer I am actually ready to officially start back, my schedule will slow down some, I hope! Don't get me wrong I have had a great summer. I was able to do about 17 professional developments for the district, attend a few for myself, and I watched two (sometimes 3) of y favorite kiddos for the summer (Carter, Henry, and Anne-Michael).

I have a packed week next week as well though, lots more PD, but it is like an old thing now. Looking forward to what the year will hold for us. Keep you posted!!!

will it happen...

Today has just been one of those days. It has been a rough 4 years and sometimes it feels as though I am never going to be a mother. I know it is in God's hands and I trust that one day we will be blessed, but in the meantime my heart hurts. I do not know what to do but pray. Pray for peace and understanding. I know it truly is that easy, but sometimes it doesn't feel so easy. It really is hard though when everyone around you seems to just get pregnant SO easily. I know that others have difficulty, but I do not know anyone directly. It just seems like no one else can understand what I/we are going through. Some days are just tough and today is one of those days.