A few pics of Cole...

Then me with Cole at 18 weeks...I just look pretty thick with a big butt. This picture doesn't show it, but I actually thought my butt had gotten smaller by the way my pants were fitting, guess not. I am SO critical :) I truly am so lucky to be carrying Cole and having this blessing given to me/us. I really am grateful for this experience.  Maybe I can get some better pictures though soon :)

It's a BOY!!!

...and boy were we surprised!!! Let me back up. Yes, we did find out a week early. If you read my last post "what is my deal?" you know that I have been anxious and feeling a little stressed about everything. I had been disappointed a few times thinking that I was going to have an ultra sound and then I did not have one. It was all just getting to me. It was almost like the angel and devil on my shoulder and they were in an argument. I kept trying to tell myself everything was fine and I had a count down going and telling myself "only 10 more days and you will see him, only 9 more...everything is fine". Well Sunday night I just could not handle it. I am pretty sure I was having an anxiety attach. I had tried to keep it in for so long and tell myself everything was ok, but my head was just not listening. My heart was racing, I could not catch my breath, and I was just crying. Poor Casey did not know what to do? He asked what was wrong, did something happen to make you think something is wrong, etc...I had nothing! no symptoms, no anything telling me something was wrong, but my head and the way I was feeling. Casey felt that I really needed to call the doctor. I was not sure because I had not had any luck with him thus far, but Monday when I woke up and started crying again I figured I should.
So I called the doctor's office and talked with the nurse. Yes, I began crying again on the phone with her. I was out of control. After going back and forth with conversations she said that I needed to come in. I did not need to be stressed out like I was. I asked her about an ultra sound and she connected me with the insurance lady up front, who was so sweet. She got my information and asked if she could call me back. She called back within 30 mins and said "well I just got verification that your insurance will cover the ultra sound, can you come in tomorrow afternoon?" I said YES! and already felt a little better knowing that I was going in for the appointment the next day, plus Casey was off and I knew he could come with me.
When we got there we went straight in for the ultra sound. The technician was very sweet and let us know that this one would be a quick one. It was just to reassure me that everything was ok, but at my 20 week it would take about an hour or hour and half because they were going to look at everything in more detail. Right when she put it on my belly you could see his little face :) I felt as though 50lbs had been lifted, then she recorded the heart beat and we heard it (another 50lbs lifted). Then she stretched out and you could see his whole body. He was stretched out with his legs crossed and his hands up behind his head. We just laughed. She said you baby looks pretty comfortable. She said the baby is breech right now, but don't let that bother you it has plenty of time to turn. She pointed to his feet and said he is basically standing on your bladder, well as soon as she said that, the  baby started moving as if he was running in place on my bladder! she said I bet you are going to the bathroom all the time! and yes I am! He began moving ALL over the place. He was EVERYWHERE. Remember though we still did not know it was a boy at this time. I know I keep typing "he" but it was not until the end that we found out. I almost thought we were not going to find out. He would not turn right, so I thought girl, she is being modest. :) Casey and I had both pretty much convinced ourselves that it was a girl for so many different reasons. The technician asked us what we thought and Casey told her girl and a few reasons why. Then she asked us if we had names picked out. We told her yes and told her the names. She said "Well, I think I have seen it, but I really want to see if I can get a better picture before saying anything. Just about then she got it. She froze the frame and said I am glad you have a boy name because it is a boy!!! Our eyes were huge and said boy? are you sure? She said 100% sure! Then she drew an arrow and said, as she circled it, "here is his scrotum and then here is his little weenie" and yes it was! We could not believe it. Casey's eyes were huge and the smile on his face was even bigger! I was still in shock I think. It was a great moment.
I know I have told some of you before, but I have always seen myself as more of a boy mom (growing up a tom boy with two brothers and so involved in sports), but everyone said I was having a girl and I had convinced myself that God had a sense of humor and was probably going to give me a prissy little, pink loving girl that I would have no idea what to do with, but I guess that was not his plan!
We are SO excited and I feel a million times better. I am not use to being a drama queen, but I am glad I got to go to the doctor and find out that I am having a sweet and healthy little boy! very active too! Now we are just excited about the arrival of Cole Bradford Coggin in April!!!!! :)

A lady that works with Casey, Mary Ann, had to get Cole an Arkansas outfit as soon as she found out he was a boy. How funny! Cole will be ready for football season now.

What is my deal? :)

I had an appointment almost two weeks ago now. It was a very weird appointment. I left a little frustrated. I  do not know what it is, well not really. I can imagine, but the last few times I have gone to the doctor I have been an emotional mess. You remember the doctor asking me if I was sure there was one? Well that has been on my mind, especially with SO many people telling me how big I am and if I am sure it is just one! (People can say the dumbest things sometimes). Well, I do not think I posted this, but around 14 wks I had some bleeding, nothing big! I actually was not worried at first, but then Casey started questioning me and really got me to thinking, so then I began to worry. So I called the doctor on call (not mine) and to say the least he did not have the best bed side manners. He really upset me, but told me I was fine. He actually acted like he was annoyed that I called him over something so minimal. That was on a Saturday. I did nothing the rest of the weekend and called my doctor on Monday. He said he thought it was nothing, but come in and I will check you out and ease your mind. So I did that following Monday afternoon. He said everything was fine and the heart beat was great, but still did not do an ultra sound. He told me not to worry, but if I felt anxious or worried to come in again next week or so and I will check you out again and I do an ultra sound if that will make you feel better. My appointment was in about 10 days so I was on edge but figured I could wait until then. My attitude was..."I am not leaving this office without an ultra sound!" So I get there and it is not my regular nurse, which was fine. She was so sweet and she could tell I was a little emotional. She said "the ultra sound technician was not here today, but Dr. Macey can do it. I will just go ahead and pull the machine and put it in your room." So I was feeling better when I went into the room seeing the machine a hands length distance away. Dr. Macey comes in and says "What's the problem? you still spotting?" I said no, but I just think I would feel better if I could have the ultra sound, remember you mentioned last time you would give me one if I still was not feeling 100% about everything. So he said let's check you out. He said I look great, measuring right and heart beat was good. He saw no reason to do a ultra sound. UGH!!!!! I could feel my voice cracking. Like I said I am emotional wreck when I go in there. I think it is overwhelming with the reality that I AM PREGNANT after so long and going through so much to get here, plus I am hypersensitive to EVERYTHING. I told him I wish I was high risk (not really, but I want the treatment). I am sure all first time moms are a little hypersensitive and without a pity party I really think I should have constant assurance that everything is ok. I know I sound a little needy, which drives me crazy, because I am not that kind of person, but in this situation, I am!
I told Casey last night that I am ready for this pregnancy to be over! I have been lucky and not had any sickness or problems, but I want my baby here and in my arms, which I know will come with a whole new set of worries, but I am just ready to see him or her. Not much longer as far as knowing the sex. Two weeks from yesterday. We are so excited and chomping at the bit! I will keep you posted! Love you all!

2nd trimester is here!

I know I have not posted in a while, but not much has changed. So I am not sure what to say? When the whole process started there was always something to update. I was thinking about a picture, but my iphoto is messed up. Plus I am not sure if I am ready for that or not? Hehehehe :) This is week 14. That is hard to believe sometimes. I want to enjoy every moment, but it is very nerve wracking to me as well. I am trying to relax and enjoy it, but I am VERY aware of everything going on in my body. I wonder what everything is. Is that a cramp? just gas, maybe bloated, am I getting big too fast? Whew! My mind is exhausting. A big concern the last few days has been how I sleep. Is it OK to sleep on your back? Do you need to alternate sides? etc... I have heard until 16 weeks your back is fine, but reading the Internet can just make you go crazier! I go to the doctor next week so that will be on my list of questions.
I am sure this is somewhat normal for all first time moms, but after everything we have been through it is still hard for me to believe at times that we are pregnant. I have been lucky and blessed to not have been sick or nauseated. So when you do not feel pregnant or look pregnant you just hope that everything is doing what it is suppose to and that the baby is growing healthy and strong. I really wish I could go to the doctor every week!! I mean that is what I am use to at the fertility doctor. I was there all the time and getting updated on every little thing. Now I go every 4 weeks! that seems like forever!
We are so excited to be in our second trimester and look forward to the weeks to come. Especially next month when we find out the sex!! We cannot wait to see what this little person is going to be! I will keep you posted and maybe a picture too!!

Bye Bye Progesterone and 1st Trimester...

Yes, you read that correctly...no more shots!!!! I took my last one this week. That is something that I will not miss. I was glad to see them go! and Bye to my first trimester too! That will happen in just a few short days. I had my first appointment with Dr. Macey yesterday. All went well. I did not have an ultra sound though. I was a little disappointed about that-I was hoping to see the little booger again and how much had changed. He said that he already had all he information sent over from NFC so he didn't need to do one. He basically just checked me out and got me set up with things (payment for appointments and delivery). It seemed crazy to be discussing delivery already, but I do realize it will be here fast. He did listen to the heart beat and when he was listening to it, he kept moving the Doppler around on my stomach. Then he looked up at me and he said "are you sure there is only one in there?" I just laughed and said "what, yes...well, that is what they tell me". He didn't really say much more, but I thought that was funny. The heart beat was 165. Still a high number. He is also said I was 11 weeks and 3 days yesterday and that everything looked well. I do not go back until October 28th, then again on November 23rd. Our November visit will be when we find out the sex!! How exciting!!! Yes we are finding out the sex and Yes we will let you all know!! I am so glad my first trimester is coming to an end, but in some ways it is hard to believe. It has not been bad but I think my nerves will feel better knowing that we have made it this far. It is still like a dream to me at times that this is truly happening to us. :)  Oh yes, I have a bump! It has popped out this last week. That is kind of funny too! I think I might, might post a belly shot at 12 weeks, if I am not to self conscious hehehehe....

10 weeks 3 days

Well, all is well. I am officially done with the fertility doctors (I hope) and now I will begin seeing my OBGYN, Dr. John Macey. I have my first appointment with him this Thursday, September 30th. I am not exactly sure what will happen at this appointment, but I think maybe another ultra sound since this is my first visit with him. I had my last appointment with my fertility doctors on September 15th. That was pretty neat. The first time we went for the ultra sound it was a pulsating dot and we did hear the ultra sound and this date was only two weeks later, wow do things change in two weeks! The ultra sound tech was smiling and she said oh look your baby is moving...she turned the screen and you could tell it was a baby, head, arm and leg sprouts, etc..I just giggled. I was not expecting that! The baby was moving/wiggling. It was kind of funny. The heart rate this time was 170. from my heart rates and baby bump (high) I am thinking girl, which is so funny to me. I have always seen myself as more of a boy mom, but I think it will be wonderful whatever the sex is! We are just so excited. It gets a little more real to me everyday. Last night Casey and I were laying down and he said "has it really hit you yet that "we" are having a baby? say it out loud we are having a baby". He was so funny. He is SO excited. Today after church he suggested that we go look at baby stuff. So we went to Babies R Us and Target. It is a little overwhelming looking at everything, but fun too! So many decision to be made.
I am finally sleeping a little better, but that does not say very much. This sleep routine has really thrown me for a loop. I think it is God's way of giving me a little practice for my days ahead of me! :)

Progesterone, Peeing and Sleep! :)

Ha! Yes, this are the big things in my life right now :) We are on the last leg of progesterone and now I know what it is for, it is to thicken my uterus. I guess it is important to have a thick uterus while pregnant. Peeing is something I do all the time too! I was not exactly sure why? I mean it's not as if the baby is pressing on my bladder already, this week it is going from the size of a blueberry to a raspberry. It amazes me every time I read about how it is growing and developing every week.  I found out why I am peeing so much already! Apparently HcG causes an increase of blood flow to the pelvic region, causing you to have that gotta go feeling and pee all the time. The other thing is during pregnancy your kidneys efficiency improves. It is trying to help your body rid itself of waste more quickly. So there you go! learn something new everyday! :)
Sleep, that is another story. It has been interrupted for about two months now. It has changed over the weeks. I use to wake up at 3 am and not go back to sleep. Now my routine is sleep about two hours and then pee. I am usually able to go back to sleep, but I am only able to sleep for about two hours at a time. I am thinking this is God's way of preparing me for motherhood. Some nights you will have  4 or 5 hours of sleep, but then there will be some nights where you get two hours here and then two hours there.
I am still feeling well. I go back for a second ultra sound on September 15th at the fertility office. If all checks out well I will then be released to my OBGYN, Dr. Macey. That appointment is on September 30th and I will be 11 weeks. That is when the progesterone will be over!!! I swear my butt will never be the same after all these shots, but apparently I will say that about my entire body after being pregnant! Hehehehe